and can i just say “wow.”
yeah, the way that new NMD said it in her acceptance speech today.
And “God is Good. All the Time.
All the Time. God is Good.”
when you start your morning with those words? yeah, you know something’s coming and you best get ready for it. things are about to get messed. up…. in the absolute bestest way possible. yup i said bestest; go with it.
you know that “dream job?” that elusive, one in a million, can’t find it because i swear it doesn’t exist? yeah, that one…
where passion meets gifts and culminates with what someone will actually pay you to do? …there might not be much in that little overlap of groups. but there will be something. even if you can’t see it… yet.
Oh, the “yet,” don’t you just LOVE the “yet?”
it’s very possible you don’t.
at least, not yet.
And that is A-Okay. because so long as you keep looking for the window, God will lead you through one. sometimes… most times… in the unexpected kinds of ways. maybe it will feel like He wrapped you tight around a rock and through you through that window.
He actually probably will. if He hasn’t already.
the “i’m not expecting anything more than this to happen here,” ways…
the too low expectations ways. those times where you go into something- an event, a day, a job- with little to no expectations and He gets to just blow it up geiser-style in your face!
…in a good way.
always a good way.
that is this. that is here.
you see, for what seems like forever i have been FLOUNDERING. no seriously, F–L–O–U–N–D–E–R–I–N–G. that fish out of water, suffocating on the driest of ground? That. has. been. ME.
i have been perpetuating the dry ground. living in the desert i have created for myself. trying to thrive there… and, on many occasions- let’s just be honest, they are more than i would like to admit- have found myself just plum trying to cry an oasis into existence. yes, i have been there.
and i am leaving there.
here. now. gone. done.
i found passion for something that is multi-purposeful. it feeds directly into the huge key areas i am so desperately restless to be a part of actively doing something for. it is something i already have a foot in and have been wading in the water debating on whether or not i actually want in.
i kinda was wanting that writing on the wall, moment of epiphany, “ahah” moment. waiting to see if interests and talents can turn into passions and if those in turn can become something i could actually develop into a legitimate career. the kind that could support a family. give financial freedom. enable some of these bigger dreams i’ve been dreaming to come to fruition…
yup. got my writing.
on a jumbo screen.
in computer print and colored slides.
in watching rerun of an Olympian break a world record.
in women. women of all ages with all stories talking about a journey they have taken that, let’s face it, is doable. hard. but doable.
empowered women will stir emotion you didn’t know resided in you. strangers stories resonate so deeply and we react so strongly. why? because it’s real. and oh so good to hear. it’s encouragement and joy and beauty.
i kinda don’t want to tell you all of my revelations. not just yet. i don’t want to unleash the floodgates of facts and passions and the little dreams and visions i have- of how they could come together to impact cultures. globally. profoundly.
if you have any sort of insight into what i’m doing in my life right now, this weekend, then you probably know where this is headed.
but here’s what i want you to do: lose your expectations.
i just found passion. here. in learning and being educated. in researching and listening. flood waters have been unleashed. there’s a stirring that i can direct to something and somewhere and it’s exciting.
scaring the guts right out of me exciting.
but Jennie Allen spoke truth and encouragement the other day. i knew i needed to hear this. i just didn’t know how much:
“here is the thing about leading something…. you will be loved and hated.
So, as one facing her two worst fears, being hated and/or humiliated, let me tell you what I have learned:
Receive criticism. If you want to lead well, just never defend yourself again. Take it. Jesus actually meant it when He said, “To one who strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also.” Luke 2:28 Because it is the very most freeing way to live. (Note: I did not say easy). I learned this one the hard way, and let’s just say it led me to my next lesson.
Humility is often closely connected to humiliation. Because we can only fake humility alone in the dark on back rows.Humility is built in battle, in the moments you are running and fighting and leading, and you fall, and people see and then they know you aren’t God and you remember you desperately need God.
Love the fear. As a child, I hated feeling nervous. My mom used to say, “It’s just butterflies.” So I sat in the back of life for decades, avoiding “butterflies.” I successfully avoided nausea and the very best parts of life. If you ever want to do anything of significance, you have to learn to love the sick, tense feeling in your belly instead of hate it. It doesn’t seem to ever leave me these days. So I am making the butterflies my friends.
People liking you is overrated. If you love being liked by everyone, you are living a boring life. So just quit. Get over it. Let pleasing God become bigger than pleasing people.”